What a feelings are displayed here! It’s really hard to find your real love. However, it may be waiting for you. Because your soul knows what is better for you! Forget all the bad experience and live on. I think you should develop and improve yourself! Try reading interesting books, doing your favorite things! When you love yourself – you will be loved by men! Not be obsessed with the problem of loneliness! The most important is not losing the hope! You must believe in your real love and wait for it! Because our life is very unpredictable!